Couldn’t sleep

It’s been an awful night. I couldn’t put down Netflix until this series was over called Life Unexpected. It was cute but definitely not worth staying up half the night. It’s about a girl in the foster system that finds her parents and the courts gave them custody and her life through high school with them.

Anyway, once I got it turned off at 2:30am, I knew I would only get 4 hours of sleep. I was mad at myself and tried to go to bed.

An hour later and a bunch of stomach rolls and horrible thoughts of police coming to take my kid away to juvenile hall for threatening his friends and thoughts of Forgetful being gone, I tried to sneak into my sons room to lay in my recliner to get at least a few hours of sleep.

I woke him up. Dammit. Then he had to know why I was in there so I told him (not my best idea) which of course made him nervous and he refused to go back to sleep and talked to me until almost 4am when we both passed out. At least he knows how serious this could be. I am going to call around today to find him an anger specialist psychologist. I don’t care about cost at this point, I just want him to learn how to deal with this anger. His Dad has it too so it’s not all his fault, he comes by it through his genes.

The alarm went off at 6. I jumped up and came in my room to turn it off. I told him to get up and he says, “I hope you have enjoyed your stay in my casa.” 😂Now I am in my room typing this and so sleepy!

I only have one job today and it’s not until 1pm so as soon as he’s at school, I am going to try to go back to sleep for a few hours. I have to. I’m not going to drive anyone on 2 hours sleep. No energy drink for me this morning. I want to be able to go back to sleep. I’m a little surprised I haven’t made more typing errors, thank goodness for spell check on my phone.

Chat later, hugs. I hope you slept well. What do you do when your thoughts keep you awake all night?

28 thoughts on “Couldn’t sleep

  1. I hate those nights when I can’t sleep! After tossing and turning few an hour, I usually get up to get a drink of water, take a shower and pray. Thank goodness these types of nights don’t happen as often anymore!

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  2. If your kid has anger issues, i wouldn’t immediately assume it’s something mental.
    Many people lack vitamines which can make them nerves or stressed. I think magnesium could help. But you probably need to check with the doc

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    1. Oh for sure – I’d totally agree there. Likewise it can be behavioural. If his dad didn’t have good anger management skills, it’s reasonable to think that perhaps he had nobody to learn this from or has this idea that strong, respectable men (like one often assumes one’s dad is) behave the way he does. Just having someone work with him to get some tools and skills for dealing can help a lot. So I wouldn’t jump to the worst conclusion at all. But of course meeting with a professional will help you find the way to a workable solution.

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      1. I am actually surprised that this old crappy apartment of ours survived! 😅 I didn’t drive because it was going to be hell.
        “Luckily” where I live there are not many trees, so there wasn’t any damage from that.
        I think everything is calm again today 🙂 thanks for your concern!

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  3. Here’s hoping you’re getting some good sleep.

    I wish I had some good advice for sleeping – I’m lucky enough to sleep well, though I am reading a nonfiction book in which one of the characters has a bedtime routine where she runs through all the things she is thankful for when she can’t sleep. It seems to work for her, and I think it would at least be something better to think about than all the bad things which keep people awake.

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  4. Honestly I just get up and hit the gym or something. It seems like the only thing that stops my mind from thinking about stuff too much is being exhausted at the gym. I just get to winded to think about a damn thing. I’m sure your son will be fine if you explain the situation, most law enforcement would rather have you help him than punish him. It will all work out and you’re certainly doing the right thing in my opinion.

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  5. I take a low dose Melatonin (1 mg) and a 5-HTP capsule. I’ve read that use of electronics within a half hour of bedtime stimulates the brain and can make it difficult to get to sleep. They were speaking specifically of both cell phones and computers. I have found this to be true for myself.

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      1. Yes, the higher 5mg dose kept me awake, too. I broke them into halves and they worked better, then tried quarters and they worked better yet. When I used those up, I found a 1 mg tablet and it works fine. I found the pill cutter at the Dollar Tree for $1 and the Spring Valley 1 mg Melatonin at WalMart. If I remember right it was just 3 0r 4 dollars for 120 tablets.

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  6. I would suggest you talk to your son medical provider and/or school counselor. They should be able to provide you with some great resources on diet and anger management courses for your son. You may also want to sign him up for a extra curricular activity to channel his energy.

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  7. I’ve learned to just roll with it. I try the next night to go to bed earlier and I try to make sure I do everything I can to be prepared for the next day. I’m sorry you didn’t sleep well. I hope you sleep better tonight.

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  8. I love your relationship with your son, Julie. ❤ I think it's a great idea to get him into some classes to help him deal with his anger better.
    I watched Life Unexpected awhile ago! I don't think I finished watching the whole series but I remember I liked it, too. I hope you get more sleep without all the thoughts bothering you tonight. Usually I read a book or watch TV, too, when I can't sleep like last night. 😛

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