Yesterday was NOT a good day.
I woke up my child to go to school with me and he fell back asleep so we didn’t get out the door until almost 6:30 which drove me nuts. Then he complained the entire time we were there. We left at 11:15 because I couldn’t concentrate on what I had been doing (anatomy homework) with him just staring at me.
We left, picked up Mexican food, and went to his therapist. I talked to him for 30 minutes first because my chest had been hurting for over an hour and I was worried about having a heart attack. He told me that it was a full blown panic attack. I haven’t had one in 4 years! I forgot what they felt like. The therapist is sending me to a friend of his that will be low cost and give me something for those times. I guess its situational since I only have to get a prescription as needed.
When I posted it on Instagram last night, I got a great outpouring of love from everyone which was very appreciative! I also got texts from people I know telling me what I should take for it. I didn’t post on there what happened with my son. His father sees my instagram so I definitely didn’t want to put that on there. He would just call and yell at my child and that does absolutely no good, especially since that man rarely comes to see his child. That just makes my son hate him more. And I didn’t tell my mother because I don’t want to give her that kind of stress. Only you guys, the ones that actually read the post, knows what happened. And that’s what, 3 people? Lol
So I am working this morning with Styled, hair and nails. I took my nutrition exam yesterday after my panic attack subsided some and still got a C. That was very upsetting since I studied like crazy but at least I didn’t fail it like the Anatomy test last week! It’s the only real job I had this week too. Making under $100 a week isn’t helping my stress either. I was accepted to work for Shipt but I’m not sure about grocery shopping for people and then some want you to take it into their house? I’m not comfortable with that.
Next exams are in 2 weeks, math and nutrition on the same day. That will be fun, right? Don’t mind me, I’m just stressed out, anxious, and want to just walk away from my dreams at this point. I don’t understand why I have to be so stressed just to do what I want to do. Why do I need all these extra classes just to learn nutrition? The state exam can’t be this hard!
I had popcorn for dinner last night. It’s what I wanted so I had it. Total of 59 carbs yesterday. Not too bad. I need less since my feet are tingly today so I’m starting my day with eggs and sausage patties made at home. Today will be a better day. I talked to BFF and she’s got a lot going on too. I also talked to my neighbor friend and she suggested going to the gym with her this weekend so I will do that. Maybe a dance class?
Have a good Friday. I’ll chat with y’all later.