Just studying

I am working one job a day this week and studying when I’m not working.

I do have good news on the cigarettes though!

25 days now not smoking! Woo hoo! I love my Cue vape. I truly believed it helped save me from smoking.

I had lunch with my oldest friend. We met in kindergarten and have stayed in touch all these years. She would kill me if she knew I put her picture on here!

And here’s Oliver sleeping and not letting me study.

I hope everyone is having a good week so far!

Saturday and really should study

I didn’t wake up until 8:30am and that felt so nice (especially since I didn’t go to sleep until after 1am)! I was lazy for a bit. I finally got in the shower around 10. My sons friend got here at 11 (I LOVE being asked if a friend can come over about 10 minutes before they get here 🙄). We all packed in the car and went to therapy at noon. I went to speak with the psychologist first. I had him sign my copy of his book too.

I told him what’s been going on in my world. 1. I haven’t had a cigarette in over 3 weeks.

2. My mother is dating AND going to a grief group (pick one please 🙄). 3. My ex is afraid he’s going to jail because of non payment of child support (he was warned a year ago that if he missed payments he would be going 😬). 4. My sons grades went from mostly A’s with a B or 2 to mostly B’s with an A or 2. 5. I am looking for a regular job again.

Then my son talked to him. 1. He wants to get in the special high school so he is bringing his grades back up. 2. He has a girlfriend (how do 13 year olds actually date?). 3. He hates everyone but puts up with them so he’s not alone. 4. He is doing his chores like I ask and listening (which is amazing to me).

I took my son and his friend for ice cream after and ate some too. I got a small scoop of chocolate ice cream. My son got a huge cone and his friend got the big cup of blue ice cream. You see they both have their phones out. Kids these days!

When we got back home, I didn’t want to study yet so I went to the gym. I did 30 minutes on the treadmill walking and running, 30 minutes on the elliptical, and 15 minutes on the stationary bike. When I was completely worn out, I walked home.

Then it was study time, right? NOPE! 2 other friends of my child showed up so I ordered pizza for dinner for all of us. I ate my cheese pizza.

I talked to BFF for like an hour. Now I’m writing this. When am I going to get the 3 chapters that are due on Monday done? Umm…one tonight and 2 tomorrow? Maybe. Hopefully. Thank goodness I don’t have my other class work due this coming week!!!

The issue I have tomorrow is I have to grocery shop, cook, work out again (I DID eat pizza tonight), and get ready for the week doing laundry and dishes and stuff. So I should have done this today. Oh well. I have until 11:59pm on Monday. Maybe I will do one today, one tomorrow, and one Monday? LOL I just love Anatomy 🤣.

It’s 8:30pm so I better get going on the parts of a cell!

Granddad and Grandchild

He only had one grandchild, my son. Well duh, I’m an only child and I only have one kid!

He adored my son. My son idolized his grandfather. They were quite the pair!

They both loved to read and both loved trains. My son will not go near a train anymore and I guess that makes sense but it’s sad.

The day my son was born.

My Dad in his favorite shirt (that I kept) with my son reading books.

My Dad and my son on trains. They always had so much fun together!

Pictures with my Dad

Not sure how old I was here (maybe 2?) at Lake Brownwood TX. My Dad always seemed happiest at a beach. Don’t ask me whose boat that is because we didn’t own one and I have NO idea who we were there with (probably family reunion).

This was outside my grandparents trailer in Lubbock TX. Why I always stripped my dolls naked I have no idea! You can see the door of our 1975 Buick we had back then too.

Me with the silly grin and it always made my Dad smile! This was outside our home back then in Houston. I recognize the bricks (I have driven by the house recently and it’s still there and still the same).

At my great great great aunts house in Brownwood TX when I was between 8-10 years old. We are seated next to his parents but this post is about me and my Dad.

I was 14 here in Lubbock with my Dad. We were at some animal farm. I can’t think of the name of the critters! They burrough in sand and pop out to look around and I actually got to feed them as they would come right up to you.

My Dad gave me away when I got married both times but this was at my first wedding which most likely cost him WAY too much but he did whatever his wife and only child asked for (please note I did not ask for an expensive wedding – that was my mother). My 2nd wedding cost $400 only and was just as nice and I am lucky my Dad was there then too.

My Dad and I in Key West Florida. We had driven from Naples all the way down and stayed on the beach. I loved it there and will always have good memories with my Dad there. My mother was there too but I only have a photo there with my Dad.

These are just a few photos of me with my Dad. I was a total Daddy’s girl, can you tell? Well, I still am!

Hard to stop

I am still just trying to get stuff done schoolwise and cleaning out this house.

I was looking for puzzles my mother used to have the other day and she told me to look under the dining room seat. I open it up to find SO many more dishes! Why does a person need 7-10 sets of dishes???

I am trying to do my school stuff but today I just can’t. It would have been my dad’s 77 birthday today. I started crying when I pulled up my son’s Snapchat and saw what he posted this morning.

My son may be a pain to me and my mother sometimes but he loved his PaPa.

Last night I was cleaning out a box in my closet and cannot for the life of me remember who gave these to me or why I have kept them for who knows how long.

So they are up for grabs! I bought the cutest socks for .99 from LootVault and they came in the mail so of course I am wearing them today.

Yes, along with my only pair of sweatpants that are from VSPink. They are really comfy!

I worked out the other day dancing and I am hitting my watch goals daily.

I have been having a tough time getting in to talk to somebody at school about what I can do for a career. I finally spoke with an advisor yesterday and they sent me to the career center to take a strange aptitude test. This year said I would be a good teacher (oh hell no), a good medical care person, or good in human resources. It suggested I get a masters in psychology and manage a care center. Really??? Hmm, I guess I have more thinking to do now. I am supposed to email my current resume to the career person and they will call to have me come meet with them about finding me a job and seeing about keeping me in school for a new career. We shall see if that goes okay.

I say hard to stop because I have to keep going. I want to just sit here with a pint of Halo Top and cry and watch sad cheesy movies but I have stuff to do.

I miss my Dad. Like crazy. Have a good day.

Saturday and procrastinating

All I have been doing is working and studying. That’s why I haven’t really posted.

Last night, I got out my calendar and wrote every due date for every class in it. It’s not that bad except the one day in April when I have 3 exams on one day. That’s going to be killer!

Yesterday I had to go to 3 different campus bookstores to get the 2 books for my Anatomy class. And why do they want to use the much more expensive ones??? There was a book for $100 but of course that wasn’t for my class, mine was $200! And the lab book was $65! But I now have them and can study. Don’t you think they could give you a binder that fits all the papers from your book? Why do they give you the book like this? Thank goodness I have a kid in school so we have extra binders!

I also copy and pasted my nutrition text into word and then had to go through to make it look like it does on the screen (when you copy and paste, it puts it all together in one big 19 page paragraph). I did the first 3 chapters so I can study those as well this weekend.

I had 3 math things due already yesterday. On the Pre-test (stuff from college algebra), I got an 80. On the new homeworks , trying to do it by myself, I got a 29 and a 33. I called on my friends that love math and am working with them to help me so I don’t fail this class. I may have failed the first two homeworks but there are many more!

I ordered a Cue flavor from the Cue website (www.cuevapor.com). It’s called Orange Whip and it is so good!!! It tastes like orange creamsicle from back in the day.

I asked the smoke shop here if they have it and they hadn’t even heard of it. I told them I would come by with it this weekend so they can try it. I really like the employees at this place if you can’t tell. I may start ordering from the website though as they have discounts and a point system for freebies plus it’s a dollar cheaper per cartridge (although they do charge shipping). It’s been 2 weeks since I smoked an actual cigarette!!!

I still weigh 150 so I can’t complain about that. I went running the other day and was able to run faster as I mentioned in my last blog. I may go out today too, can you tell how much I am procrastinating from studying???

My mother is still dating this man she met a few weeks ago. They seem to be getting along great. I’m not sure if I should be happy for her or upset that it’s only been a little over a year and a half since my father passed away and she’s already saying how she could marry this guy. She is definitely smitten with him for sure! It’s the first guy she’s gone out with though! An she feels like she needs to tell me intimate details how she doesn’t want to do this or that and she’s having fun. I am just screaming inside my head all the time when she talks.

On the lighter side, here are a couple of jokes I found on Facebook and Instagram.

Oh! I went to put the Christmas ornaments in the garage and saw that all of the other Christmas boxes had fallen over and well, I have a huge cleanup job now!

So I definitely have something to do while I procrastinate!!!

Have a wonderful Saturday and let me know what you’re up to!

Tuesday and Wednesday were good!

Tuesday I decided to dance for a while. I ended up dancing for an hour!

Today I did arm strength training for 30 minutes.

I took the ornaments off the tree.

It got cold again so I washed my hair at night and had crazy hair today for class. Lol This is what happens when I go to sleep with wet hair.

I finally heard back from my Anatomy professor that I will have access on Friday (she didn’t set it up until tomorrow) and she wasn’t counting anyone absent until next week. Whew!

I’ve been so stressed that I have had many cravings. I haven’t smoked, I just thought at almost 2 weeks it would be easier.

So I have this thing on my finger! I don’t know what it is. It hurts like crazy though!

How is your week?